I really enjoy running educational programming with Faces of Israel. But I have a strong distaste for the publicity, marketing, e-mails and cold calls that go along with being an independent educator. Lacking the manpower of a big organization is one of the main disadvantages of being a solo agent.
During a conversation with the president of Hillel International earlier this week, he mentioned that the organization would soon be launching a Center for Israel Engagement and is currently looking for a director. My ears immediately perked up when I heard this. To have the backing of the organization that I partner with so frequently, to direct my own center and to be the first person in the position and make it my own… very tempting. But I admit that I may have been more tempted by the title than anything else and – assuming that I could even land the position – why subject myself to a marathon of daily meetings and conference calls, not to mention waking up to an alarm early each morning?
I feel conflicted. I realize that this position probably wouldn’t make me happy and I shouldn’t waste my time or theirs by polishing and submitting a resume and cover letter. But then, how to spend my time? I am loving dancing, but almost all classes and socials are in the evening – and would I really be content dancing full time anyway? Yair recently read “The Joy of Not Working” and one of the things he gained from it was an exercise to create a visual layout of different activities that interest him currently, have interested him in the past, and a category of new things that he’d like to try.
But individual activities wouldn’t be enough for me. I don’t just want to while away my time entertaining myself with hikes, dancing, good food, sound sleeps, interesting reads and TV shows. I enjoy all of those things, but I need to balance them with something more meaningful. Yair is able to wake up, take a look on the computer for interesting things to do and be content to plan his day on the spot. I need to think out my plans and incorporate more structure and social interaction, or I’ll just stay in bed until my first commitment of the day.
People always wish that they had more free time to “get in shape” or “catch up on sleep” or whatever else. I’m lucky enough to have all of the free time that I want, but now I’m faced with a much more challenging dilemma: how to spend it.
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